Disappointed Ranting

Sitting here I can do nothing but wonder why my happiness seems to be momentary, almost fleeting. That probably isn't the case but it seems that the unhappy times are the only ones that stand out in my mind. Why do they have such a powerful impact? Why does hurt leave a greater impression than joy?

Sometimes, now especially, I feel like when I finally put all my energy into something that I think is good for me I end up setting myself up for disappointment. I know nothing ever lasts but I'm trying my hardest for this to last...with the impression I wasn't the only one trying.

But still only feeling disappointed.....