Disappointed Ranting

Sitting here I can do nothing but wonder why my happiness seems to be momentary, almost fleeting. That probably isn't the case but it seems that the unhappy times are the only ones that stand out in my mind. Why do they have such a powerful impact? Why does hurt leave a greater impression than joy?

Sometimes, now especially, I feel like when I finally put all my energy into something that I think is good for me I end up setting myself up for disappointment. I know nothing ever lasts but I'm trying my hardest for this to last...with the impression I wasn't the only one trying.

But still only feeling disappointed.....

2nd Chances

Why do I give some people 2nd chances and not others? Does everyone deserve a 2nd chance? hmmmm

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Lyrical Thesis Back At It

Our Latest Performance:

Midnite Perspective

A convo between a friend and I starting with this status update:

"Boys come and go but best friends are forever"

Would you classify me as a best friend or a boy?

Odd question, but you're a friend. How's that?

Lol I was just referring to your status.

Haha its more for the guys around here. All show and no substance.

I hear u

I despise that sometimes

Wat do u despise

Being just a show. No personality

Does anyone even check for personality anymore?

No time I guess. That's why I'm bored here.

Bored is the word.

That and just blah. Unmotivated because people are boring and depressing.

Sigh I know

I just need a hobby or something.

I wonder if it's hard to learn how to crochet...

Well I'm gonna learn how to sew...Create my own world. I want my own world where major and minor shit doesn't matter. Just be you and have fun. Because I'm doin it and you're entitled to that freedom as well.

I guess that's just it...create your own world and engulf yourself in it. you are the one that has to live your life...no one else does...make your world the way you want it, and live the way you want....

Questions

Have you ever been in one of those Life Aint Shit moods?

They ask why is it so hard to let down my guards and trust. Why is it so hard for you to be trustworthy?

They ask why it seems I'm not investing as much in them as I did initially. Why should I when you distribute your investment between multiple people?

They ask why I never explain what's on my mind. Do people actually care what's on someone else's mind anymore?

Life just becomes so lacklustre and boring when people start acting carbon copies....
Even though repairable, the heart is a fragile thing, but does it start out stronger because it's never been hurt, or does it become stronger from all the beatings it endures?

Alice....

Are you ready?



Get ready...

Back at it again

3 weeks!!! dang I haven't written ina minute.

So after the Olympic Rush I took a month long break from dance. Jus kind of bummed around relaxing. I took a little trip out to Toronto (my 3rd home) and reconnected with friends and made sum new friends...and connections...(hehehe)

As for now, BACK AT IT AGAIN!

Rehearsals have been in full swing for The House of La Douche under the guidance of our leader/mother Jojo Zolina. This is my second performance with the house and we are preparing an OVAH piece for the last ever FOR THE LUV OF IT on April 29/10. This is gonna be sick.............

A few of us also (yesterday) did a promo photo shoot for the house so those pictures will be floating around some time soon. Lots of love out to Jojo for just being himself and doing what he does. I honestly don't know how many things would run without you.

My crew, my family, my biggest scheduling catastrophe (j/k) LYRICAL THESIS has been filming our first theme piece ALICE. It has been awesome translating it from stage to film. We did location shots and green screen shots so this promises to be a cool product. Much thanks to HUGO LOPEZ of BOSS ENTERTAINMENT for facilitating and shooting this project for us.

We are also preparing our newest theme piece so be ready!!

My Bucky Top family got a chance to show out at THE HEAVY HITTERS workshop at the beginning of the month. The crew was in full attendance for all three classes (Jojo/Neeks Money/Luther Brown) and got our own little brukout after the Dancehall class. Much thanks to Neeks and Jojo for makin this happen.

PS Luther's class was BEAST!

Thats it for Noyze tonight yall. Full day of shooting and I'm still up at 3 am? Mus be madd

Shout out to all my TO famz

TEASAH for bein there thru all my everything

The SandPaperz: rough an dry makin fierce look over rated

Kashmere/Somali for bein you